Wow, it's been 1 weekend filled with a 'rojak' of feelings. Starting with Sunday, session was awesome! Loved the songs and especially the new one. Except that not a lot of people knew the song so they like only sang the line "Let the praises ring!". Lol. And so we managed to get by the P&W and the games were....well....interesting. The sharing by Gerrard was damn funny. But he got the point in alright. It was nice to see everyone praying for each other for the 'O' Level results today and I guess you could say the sense of community was there. Anyway, went for lunch at market(again) and then we went off for LAN! Like finally! I was like wanting to go for dunno how many weeks and I finally did! And it was great. Lots of fun and Bryan and I kept trying to kill each other. Was kinda funny.

Then came the big day today. To be honest, this is why I wanted to post this to begin with. It was totally not the way I expected to feel and it was 1 big messy mash of feelings and emotions. Right before I left, I realised I didn't prepare my school uniform. So chiong all the way and left the house uber late. And to my surprise I made it to the hall just in time without a cab!. The starting part was boring and everyone was like itching to get their results whilst the principal and vice-principal read out their long speech. Then came the announcement of the top students. And to my surprise, I was ranked third among the school. I could scarsely believe it. Just hours ago, I had doubts whether I would make it to CJ and now I had my assurance. Praise God! But that too was, kinda say, my downfall. After knowing my results and all. I became stupidly insensitive to others and my curiousity/ego got the better of me. I started to ask around(it wasn't only school friends) my circle of friends for their results and I didn't really take alot of care into what I said to them. I believe know that I've hurt many people in my ridiculous question and my stupid replies. And although I should be celebrating, my heart aches when I visualize the pain some of them are facing. And how my insensitivity just rubbed it in. It'd sucked. A lot. I sometimes feel, what's the point of this when I'm going to cause so much pain to others. I would rather not have it to begin with.

To those whom I've hurt, I pray that you forgive me and that we may still be friends. I also pray that you may have the strength to get over this tough time and know that I'll be praying.

We all learn from failure, not from success