History

I realised that many people know me today as a fun loving, care free guy who has no problems at all. And many also always say that I had a deprived childhood as a joke. But what many don't realise is that I in fact did have a deprived childhood in a sense. It's something I'm not proud of and something I'd like to leave behind but I feel people should know what I went through. 

Some would know that I attended Tao Nan Primary School, which apparently is a pretty good school. However, Tao Nan was a all Chinese school and as most of you would have noticed, I'm tan enough to pass off as an Indian. That being the case I was often bullied and teased. I was, in short, the outcast. I was also a very obedient kid thanks to my mom and soon enough, many teachers (I think) soon liked me for what they saw in my character. This portrayed myself as a teacher's pet and gave all the more reason to pick on me. At that time, I had very few friends and I wonder now if me being shy amongst new people is because of what happened all those years ago. 


In primary 3, a girl actually came up to confess her feelings for me. But being just a imature kid, I took it lightly and well, word got out bout her liking me and she was furious. she thought that I told everyone even though I darn well know I didn't. I don't know if she ever got over that incident.

In primary school, I always stayed locked up in my home. With no friends to prompt me to go out. With nobody inviting me to their houses. I basically missed what many slowly learned in 6 years. My life was a boring one, one always with the family should I go out. It was always eat, sleep, study, play. No exposure to music, never celbrating the joy of New Year. Not going out on half-days. Now, I'm trying to catch up and trying to pick up the pieces.



In primary 6, I became a victim of a bully. Now, I find myself stupid to not have done something about it then. It might have been the fear or reluctance but I can't remember. I won't mention names but He would often throw 2 of us into a cage and make us fight each other. He made us do a whole lot of stupid things while he just sat back and laughed. He would make us take the blame for things He was responsible for. He would take what he wanted, when he wanted, and whom he wanted. To put it bluntly, it sucked to the core. 


When I entered Secondary school was the time I started changing. Lower secondary was the changing period I supposed. There were people who still made fun of me but there wasn't any bullying. Moreover, we'll just laugh it off even if we're made fun of. Sec 3 was, and will be, the year of biggest change. I changed from a girl-shy boy to someone who would make others laugh. I slowly became more friendly and more open to what the world has to offer. It was also the year I found God, and the year where I also found true friends. It was a year of fun and a care-free time which contrasted to the dark times I experienced for 6 years. 


However, I did make 1 friend in that 6 years. And that friend proved to be the most loyal, kind friend I will probably ever make. There's is nothing we can't talk about and we are still keeping in touch. And even if we don't talk for sometime, we still welcome each otheer should we meet face to face. 


This is probably the closing of the past that I've left behind. It's something that I hope will never haunt me again. I've made a freash start, a new beggining, a new life. I'm a new man in all. And I gotta say, it feels good.


P.S. After you're done reading this, don't mind but can you post your name in the cbox on your right? I want to see whose actually reading my blog or if it's even being read. Thanks!


I'm tall, I'm dark, but I'm not sure if I'm handsome lol